Fulfillment

       I don't know what it is, but today I woke up and I felt alright I guess. I was happy to have my Sunday off after working about 32 hours this past week and working out at the gym about everyday. Then my Sunday passed me--it was gone before it really even started. When I came home, all I kept thinking about is working this week...the gym... and all the things that I have to do (and want to do, of course) and I started to get disappointed. I felt like the things that make me happy are not tangible a lot of times for a number of reasons. Then I realized that I wasn't fulfilled because I didn't feel like the person that I want to ultimately be.

       Fulfillment. That is a BIG word. What does it mean? How do we obtain it, and most importantly, is it lasting? You see, I want to be fulfilled. I know that writing, filmmaking, and photography fulfills me. There may be other things that fulfill each and every one of us, but the fundamental fact remains that we all need to be fulfilled in some way. Fulfillment is feeling full. Full of energy, of love. You are comfortable and happy. You are everything that you ever wanted to be when you are fulfilled. Fulfillment means that you ARE. (Fill in the blank).

       The only thing wrong with fulfillment is process on how we make it "tangible." How does one become fulfilled? Well, it depends. We are all different and there are a number of ways to become fulfilled so it is completely up to a person' however, one fact remains that no matter who we are, we need to set time aside to allow ourselves to become fulfilled. For example, you can't complain about working 50+ hours a week and say that you aren't fulfilled. You just have to make a sacrifice somewhere. You'll still have to work those 50+ hours a week, but you need to find the time in and out of the crevices of your schedule for the things that fulfill you. The only way you can "find time" is to bargain with your body.
       There needs to be a sacrifice. UH-oh, some people have already caught on. What are we going to sacrifice? Nine times out of ten it's going to be sleep that we have to sacrifice (amongst other things).When you sleep you lose time but gain Z's, but how many Z's do we actually need? 8 hours worth? or 4-6 hours worth? Train your body AND mind. When you don't have time, you lose the opportunities to do the things that you want to do. Right now, as of this writing, I am losing sleep. I have to wake up at 6 a.m. tomorrow morning; however, this writing is fulfilling me. Tomorrow, I may have to sacrifice sleep again to begin developing a narrative for my documentary that I am planning. But you know what? I'll be on my way to fulfillment. The process of making fulfillment tangible can only exist once there has been a sacrifice made. Again, that sacrifice usually involves sleep.

       Now, how long does Fulfillment last? Some people don't want to give up all of this sleep only for something that lasts for a few days. Well, my simple answer is that it lasts as long as you want it to. there are so many sayings that correlate with my answer but here are two familiar ones, "You get what you pay for", "You get out of it what you put in." As long as you keep taking away the sleep and putting in the work for the things that make you happy, then you will continually fulfill yourself.

Remember, there is nothing that you can't do...
you just have to remember that it all starts with you.
I feel better. You should too.